Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in megan's LiveJournal:

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Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
5:58 pm	It's nights like these that make me sleep all day It's nights like these that make you feel so far away It's nights like these when nothing is for sure It's nights like these I don't want you anymore And I've only got this one wish That I was good enough to make you forget The only boy who ever broke your heart Cause nights like these tear me apart It's nights like these the sad songs don't help It's nights like these your heart's with someone else It's nights like these I feel like giving up It's nights like these I don't seem to count for much The beer tastes like blood and my mouth is numb I can't make the words I need to say She had a weakness for writers And I was never that good at the words anyways Current Mood: motherofgod (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
3:29 pm	true dat fear is the heart of love.  Current Mood: stressball (Comment on this)
12:09 am	warning- may contain material not suitable for most viewers whoa. you know you're desperate when you're resorting to livejournal. hah i nearly forgot i had one of these things...but i wouldnt say im "desperate" exactly...maybe just a little lost. so lets try to make this as painless as possible shall we? and where to begin? ah yes. let's start with, this is going to be long and drawn out i can assure you, but in good taste, so please feel free to venture on. it might even have some validity to it. who knows? i've come to the realization lately that nothing good comes to those who wait...and things don't happen for a reason. it's more like, good things come if you make them, and things happen just to ruin your life. i've felt a lot of things in my life, happiness, sadness, frustration, anger, serenity, what i thought was "love," but never had i truly experienced it...or have i? or maybe i was so close, so close that i failed to authenticate it. i somehow managed to screw it up, like i do to so many other things and aspects of my life? like i got nervous and some how fumbled the ball. would have been a perfect play but megan totally tripped over her own feet and lost the game. or maybe it wasn't me at all? maybe i was taken for a fool? maybe i was led into false pretenses by a seemingly honest and trustworthy person? maybe i let my guard down too quickly which isn't something i'd ever do if i didn't think it a wise decision. but lets face it, all good things come to an end right? if they didn't, people wouldnt have anything to complain about. i'm not the type for this. i dont dwell. i dont hang on. i just drag on. but not this time. as much as i'd like to, i find it very difficult, almost impossible to. i suppose life would make more sense if i knew what it was to cause this cataclysmic catastrophe.(ha) maybe it is just me. just me in a sense that i am the ruiner of lives and all that is unholy and evil. that is how i am beginning to feel. i am not asking for anyone's pity. i am not even asking anyone to read this. i just need someone to listen. that's all. just listen and not judge. i am having thoughts and feelings that i can't even describe, not even to myself. i need clarity because i feel like my head is going to explode. i need closure so i can get on with my life and stop blaming everything that happens around me on myself. i wish i could go back in time. fix the only mistake i made. what i'd give.  i sometimes wish i could be so heartless. ruthless even. use people, get what i need, and move on. but unlike some people, i have a consciense. apparently i'm pretty easly taken. apparently pretty gullable as well. but there's no sense in beating a dead horse. it doesn't matter what i say or do. i can only say and do so much. you know the feeling when you're so nervous that it feels like your stomach is going to rip out of body and flop on the ground in front of you? imagine that times 10. and on a daily basis. to the point that you can't eat. it's pretty much the worst feeling ever. and then add your life falling apart around you, and getting shafted by everyone you can think of...yea welcome to my life. tissues and anti-depressants are to your left, a gun and some bullets to your right. it's pathetic really.  somebody get me out of this funk. im not a lyric poster, but i couldnt say it better myself. i felt for sure last night  that once we said goodbye no one else will know these lonely dreams no one else will know that part of me i'm still driving away and i'm sorry everyday i won't always love these selfish things i won't always live not stopping it was my turn to decide  i knew this was our time no one else will have me like you do  no one else will have me only you you'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time what are you hopin for  i'm here and now i'm ready holding on tight don't give away the end the one thing that stays mine amazing still it seems i'll be 23 i won't always love what i'll never have i won't always live in my regrets i'm sorry <3 Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: damien rice (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 24th, 2006
1:47 am	yea i'm hanging out at norrus' total deja vou (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
11:14 am	Satan is biting my toes So this week pretty much was amazing. Had four days off, worked four days. Now, I got a new job making a lot more monies for a lot less labor. No more retarded shifts working all late and shit. I'm totally stoked. And I miss Miss Kelly Marie Jude McGraw and she should probably call a bitch. Oh and Leah and I are going to give some blood in a few minutes. I think that if any of you have a minute, you should probably go give some too. Cause it's for a good cause, and most of you faggots don't need it anyway. So give it up! People are dying in New Orleans and they need your blood!!!! Yep, and i'm out. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: John Secada (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
12:07 am	listen up fags new livejournal name for those who care to put it on their friends list. i havent done really started it but i thought i'd throw it out there. enjoy. eatmyboxxx Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
8:10 pm	sitting in your bosses office eating rice and playing on the computer when you should be working is totally fucking sweet. you know what else is sweet, when your house is haunted. cause mine totally is. we've had quite a few strange, unexplainable occurances in the past few weeks that totally convinced us. it's kinda interesting and scarey all at the same time. i think i want to have a sayance (totally spelled that wrong) and oh yea, being ignored is super fucking sweet too. and uhhhh......that's it i think. oh and question of the day : what do you do when there is this totally amazing person and you want nothing more than to just be with them and they are totally unobtainable for like ten reasons?? now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time but today i've wasted away, for today is on my mind Current Mood: creepy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 30th, 2005
7:53 pm	just in case you were wondering you're all a bunch of fucking faggots. period. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 21st, 2005
12:12 pm	isn't it ironic, don't ya think? isn't it weird how certain smells or like certain songs remind you of random things in your life? like passed events and people? i got in my car last night after work and for the first time in a while, the smell totally reminded me of some things....last summer and shit. it's totally weird. and then, i turned my car on, and the cd i had in was a mixed cd from last summer that i hadn't heard in forever. it was like total deja vu. kinda made me sad. i kinda miss it. eh i don't know. enough reminising. what else is is worth writing in this thing??? uh to all the folks i haven't seen in forever, katie, lisa, dan, joey, al,  nicholas, jess m (as in kyle's sister) OPIE, and chris mother fucking norrus, make it a point to holla at me sometime soon. i am in dire need of some good company and perhaps some good quality time in front of the tv and pigging out. maybe some video games. i don't know, i don't know if we'll have enough time. hah. that's so funny cause me and kazia actually did make a day out of going to bed, bath, and beyond and shit like that. and then we went to the road show and got new bowls and new lip rings for me. totally fucking sweet. and i gotta go. burger is calling my name.   Current Mood: i'd rather be high Current Music: primus (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 18th, 2005
1:17 pm	hey you I wanna piss in your mouth. Current Mood: delightful (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
2:59 pm	For any of you that are interested I am having a house warming party this Saturday...which is the 16th. There'll be food, booze, and good people. It should be fun. I live in the corner house on Stephens (9 1/2 Mile) and David. It is impossible to miss. For any that plan on coming, give me  a call and I can give you better directions. The party starts at 5 til whenever we pass out. So come one and come all!!! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 11th, 2005
4:10 pm	Ok so someone needs to make me a POISON IVY COSTUME for dawn's birthday party!!!!!!!!!! that would be super sweet. Oh yea, and make my hair grow back out just for the night. thanks <3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
11:12 am	hey, you get what you ask for man i miss everyone. life would be so much better if i didn't work like 80 hours last week. but oh well, the house is pretty much ours. so i'll be moving in shortly. which means house warming party like whoa. so that means, bring your booze and yo fine asses and lets get our drink on. it's finally fucking summer! and that's it for that pointless entry. oh wait and one more thing, you all need to call me. why? because i fucking said so. odds are i won't be able to do anything anyway cause i'll have to work, but do it anyway. one more time the number is 586-738-1612. so use it! Current Mood: faaaaaaaaaaaaaaack (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
5:11 pm	I GOT  A HOUSE!!! Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Yesssssssssssss (5 Comments |Comment on this)
12:58 am	nicholas grant, thank you for tonight. and thank you for showing me just exactly why i fucking love you so much. <3 meganolas Current Mood: wonderfully wonderful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
9:56 am	my heart only rocks to what's real AND YOU'RE NOT . oh yea and P.S. thank god for hot buff boys in white t-shirts and construction boots. owww oww. <3 Current Mood: floof me (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
10:08 am	i hate when my arms goes numb..... Get a fucking clue. seriously. Current Mood: half asleep still Current Music: Bob Seger- Night moves (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
2:28 pm	i LIVE for this shit Insert "You're so last summer" by TBS lyrics here. soooooo good. Current Mood: per usual (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
2:13 pm	"It's like the fucking holocaust up in here" GET RID OF EM!!!!!! It's garbage day, so get rid of the trash. I hate to say I told you so but, I fucking told you so. You'll be sorry. In fact, I think you already are. P.S. GO SHOPPING P.P.S. Is that even her real name? Current Mood: i am hitler Current Music: Rome-I belong to you (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 15th, 2005
5:18 pm	i should spit in your face is that what you call a getaway? tell me what you got away with cause i've seen more spine in jelly fish i've seen more guts in 11 year old kids have another drink and drive yourself home i hope there's ice on all the roads and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windshield is that what you call tact? you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back so let's end this call and end this conversation and is that what you call a getaway tell me what you got away with cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you said best friends means friends forever EAT MY DICK Have a nice summer. <3 Current Mood: crazy (4 Comments |Comment on this)